I prefer to think of it as living to a wandering metronome with a swung beat.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Existence is painful, leading one to obsessively contemplate whether the opposite - non-existence - would provide peace.
at 10:12 am
Friday, January 04, 2008
What can change the nature of a man?
Time. For with time grows regret and a desire for active atonement.
at 12:16 am
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
His wounds healed quickly but the scars, all those countless internal and external scars, remained as ugly reminders of a pained existence that never got easier.
at 7:08 am
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Saturday, June 30, 2007
"You have something, I'm not sure what it is, but you definitely have something."
"Madness?"
"Yeah, that could be it."
at 9:50 am
Saturday, May 12, 2007
"I really don't like you."
"Good."
"What?"
"Your contempt validates and reinforces my intrinsic self-loathing."
"Oh man, now my hatred is joined by pity."
"My inner masochist sincerely appreciates your condemnation."
at 3:10 pm
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
The detachment from reality was nigh-complete. A parade of alien shapes and meaningless symbols flowed into his perception but there was never any connection, nothing relatable to the dysfunctional nightmare of his internal existence.
at 2:00 pm
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Passion, joy, motivation, confidence, energy; all retreated from the overwhelming forces of fear, doubt and pointlessness.
at 1:38 pm